One of those days

Today was one of those days.  And by 'one of those days' I mean, one of those days where I knew what I should be doing, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it!

A week ago I sent emails out to around 170 Kindys and preschools in Auckland.  It's always a toss up whether to ring first, or email first....so this time I tried the email approach on advice from a friend.  A week later and half of them haven't been opened, 3 have responded and I have booked one gig.

So, after winning the video award, I thought it might be easier to get gigs...I was wrong.  It's never easy...well, not for most of us I don't think.

Anyway, today was the day I was going to start ringing all those 170, let them know about me and what I do, ask them if they've seen the email, then if they'd like to book me.  I just couldn't do it.

I did a lot of other things...like tidy my office up a bit....then luckily my stepson missed the school bus, so I drove him to school....then I went to The Warehouse and spent an hour wandering around in a daze, picking things up and putting them back...leaving with a couple of storage containers (which are sitting empty on my desk), a pair of red shoes to perform in and other sundry items which I can't even remember at the moment.

Then I rang a friend and asked if I could call in for a cuppa on the way home because I was feeling 'weird'.  She said, 'great, come to our place and feel weird here, you'll fit right in'!

I left her place feeling much better, after two cups of Earl Grey tea, some cheese and pear on crackers and with an arm-full of her daughter's picture books to read.  When I got home, I jumped on the exercycle for an hour and read them all.

Some days it is so hard to tell people how amazing you are...in fact it's hard to do that any day....and some days you just can't take being turned down time and time again....and on those days, it's best NOT to put yourself through it, because those are the days when people WILL turn you down and you WILL lose confidence in your ability.

Tomorrow though, is a new day I will ring those 170 potential gigs, or at least make a start of it.  Let's hope tomorrow is NOT another one of those days.....